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Since i don't have the mood to study yet, I shall blog, and I think it will be a very long post as there are a lot of issues I will like to bring up.

Hmmm, how should I start??
Well, its only the first day of the 'journey' and i'm bored to death.
I can see more and more popping, which is good?
Heard from people it will be damn itchy, but, i don't feel anything. Maybe its only the beginning, thats why.
Trying to take my very best care so as not to leave any scars anywhere.
So, to people who are concerned- Thanks and don't worry about me.
I hope it won't pass to anyone.
Hope I can get back to school as soon as possible. Okay, I think it is not possible.

Alright, thats all for the stupid pox. Now, the issue on...

Friend/Breaking of friendship.

Well, If YOU are reading this blog post, YOU will know that I'm referring to you. And please note. This is not related to my DMGF friends/buddies. It is to a friend in my course.

Okay, first of all, I don't know whether you will read this post. But still, I will want to clarify lots of things.

What I don't like about this issue is that you didn't even want to clarify with me what is the BIG problem. And you leave me to finding out what actually happened. I don't blame you for blocking/deleting me in msn, but at least, let me know what happened.
Now that I get the whole picture, I will like to say a few words.

First, you contradicted yourself again and again. I still remembered we had a face-to-face talk about some issue last year. I have been treating you as a good friend, but, you got the wrong impression? I couldn't deny that there was a short period of time when I'm interested in you. But, what I could do was to make my 'interest' fade, as i had a gf at that point of time. So, you and I wanted to clarify. So, after clarifying, you said you will treat me as a normal/good friend again. I'm happy to hear that, and I'm more than happy that you will think this way? Yes. this issue stop. You said you wouldn't fall for me again. I believed you, treated you like how i treated others.
Recently, I found out that you don't want to treat me as your friend anymore. After getting to know what you told Huiting, I can confidently say that you contradicted.
Let me ask you, or everyone some questions.
If you are my friend, must you really accept my romance? must you make me care for you?
I have clearly said what I wanted to say to you last year. I'm just trying to treat you as a normal friend. I don't want you to have the wrong impression again. And there you goes saying, I didn't care for you as a friend, when i'm online, i didn't talk to you etc. Must I really talk to every of my friends when they are online to show my care for them? Moreover, not to let you got the wrong impression again, I tried not to talk to you often. But I still did RIGHT? UNLESS YOU TELL ME, I DIN EVEN BOTHER TO TALK TO YOU SINCE LAST YEAR. Then in this case, I am a real bastard.

Second, whatever posts i made in my blog, they are not related to anyone, anybody, unless I want to flame or burn someone.You said my post on the 'don't care about anything just confess if not regret' is insulting you. Well, when i posted something in my blog, must I really think so much and ask myself, is my entries related to any of my friends? If it is so, it would take me one year to post one entry. Moreover, I don't see how my post is related to you. For what must i insult you in this case? And why must you link yourself to my post? Get this through okay, this is my blog. I just express myself through this. And obviously, i didn't want to think so much before posting. I CAN SWEAR THAT ALL MY POSTS ARE NOT RELATED TO YOU, OR RATHER, NOT INSULTING YOU.

Thirdly, you said being my friend is tiring. Does this means that being your friend is not tiring? Must care for you every now and then, must make you accept their romances, must talk to you in msn everyday. If all your friends, ALL, do that, okay, i can say that i'm not up to standards to be your friend. I can tell you, sometimes I didn't even talk to my closest friend/buddy, unless necessary.

Yes, I tried putting myself in your shoes. Thats the reason why, i still talk to you, ask about your life, etc. When I tried to treat you as a friend, wanted to share problems with you, but you don't wish to know my love problems. Alright, I don't blame you for that. I can understand. But sometimes, I still update you on whats happening around me. Especially this month, when we are having holidays. But have you tried putting youself in my shoe? I never blame you for avoiding me, for not talking to me, for being angry with me. But do you know that i have to accomodate to you and talk to you nicely whenever you are angry or not talking to me?

I don't wish to continue about this issue. Sorry to you if this post is too harsh or something. It's your choice. If you think that I'm not worth being your friend, I'm fine with it.

Sorry to the people who read this LONG post. It is boring but I just have to clarify.