ZzZz...

Since i don't have the mood to study yet, I shall blog, and I think it will be a very long post as there are a lot of issues I will like to bring up.

Hmmm, how should I start??
Well, its only the first day of the 'journey' and i'm bored to death.
I can see more and more popping, which is good?
Heard from people it will be damn itchy, but, i don't feel anything. Maybe its only the beginning, thats why.
Trying to take my very best care so as not to leave any scars anywhere.
So, to people who are concerned- Thanks and don't worry about me.
I hope it won't pass to anyone.
Hope I can get back to school as soon as possible. Okay, I think it is not possible.

Alright, thats all for the stupid pox. Now, the issue on...

Friend/Breaking of friendship.

Well, If YOU are reading this blog post, YOU will know that I'm referring to you. And please note. This is not related to my DMGF friends/buddies. It is to a friend in my course.

Okay, first of all, I don't know whether you will read this post. But still, I will want to clarify lots of things.

What I don't like about this issue is that you didn't even want to clarify with me what is the BIG problem. And you leave me to finding out what actually happened. I don't blame you for blocking/deleting me in msn, but at least, let me know what happened.
Now that I get the whole picture, I will like to say a few words.

First, you contradicted yourself again and again. I still remembered we had a face-to-face talk about some issue last year. I have been treating you as a good friend, but, you got the wrong impression? I couldn't deny that there was a short period of time when I'm interested in you. But, what I could do was to make my 'interest' fade, as i had a gf at that point of time. So, you and I wanted to clarify. So, after clarifying, you said you will treat me as a normal/good friend again. I'm happy to hear that, and I'm more than happy that you will think this way? Yes. this issue stop. You said you wouldn't fall for me again. I believed you, treated you like how i treated others.
Recently, I found out that you don't want to treat me as your friend anymore. After getting to know what you told Huiting, I can confidently say that you contradicted.
Let me ask you, or everyone some questions.
If you are my friend, must you really accept my romance? must you make me care for you?
I have clearly said what I wanted to say to you last year. I'm just trying to treat you as a normal friend. I don't want you to have the wrong impression again. And there you goes saying, I didn't care for you as a friend, when i'm online, i didn't talk to you etc. Must I really talk to every of my friends when they are online to show my care for them? Moreover, not to let you got the wrong impression again, I tried not to talk to you often. But I still did RIGHT? UNLESS YOU TELL ME, I DIN EVEN BOTHER TO TALK TO YOU SINCE LAST YEAR. Then in this case, I am a real bastard.

Second, whatever posts i made in my blog, they are not related to anyone, anybody, unless I want to flame or burn someone.You said my post on the 'don't care about anything just confess if not regret' is insulting you. Well, when i posted something in my blog, must I really think so much and ask myself, is my entries related to any of my friends? If it is so, it would take me one year to post one entry. Moreover, I don't see how my post is related to you. For what must i insult you in this case? And why must you link yourself to my post? Get this through okay, this is my blog. I just express myself through this. And obviously, i didn't want to think so much before posting. I CAN SWEAR THAT ALL MY POSTS ARE NOT RELATED TO YOU, OR RATHER, NOT INSULTING YOU.

Thirdly, you said being my friend is tiring. Does this means that being your friend is not tiring? Must care for you every now and then, must make you accept their romances, must talk to you in msn everyday. If all your friends, ALL, do that, okay, i can say that i'm not up to standards to be your friend. I can tell you, sometimes I didn't even talk to my closest friend/buddy, unless necessary.

Yes, I tried putting myself in your shoes. Thats the reason why, i still talk to you, ask about your life, etc. When I tried to treat you as a friend, wanted to share problems with you, but you don't wish to know my love problems. Alright, I don't blame you for that. I can understand. But sometimes, I still update you on whats happening around me. Especially this month, when we are having holidays. But have you tried putting youself in my shoe? I never blame you for avoiding me, for not talking to me, for being angry with me. But do you know that i have to accomodate to you and talk to you nicely whenever you are angry or not talking to me?

I don't wish to continue about this issue. Sorry to you if this post is too harsh or something. It's your choice. If you think that I'm not worth being your friend, I'm fine with it.

Sorry to the people who read this LONG post. It is boring but I just have to clarify.

Byebye.

I'm gonna be at home for a week or plus because of pox.
Feel like dying, not because of staying at home. But rather, due to breathing difficulty, headache, and ache all over me.
Will try to use this blog to kill time.
Take care guys. Cya soon.


Holding on

I'm falling...

Sick and will fall down soon. I'm feeling so weak, physically and mentally. Lets hope it will be only for today. And this cause me not to blog today.

Well, I'm going to blog a long post when i get well. And it will be an important post.

And yes, before i end, I will like to say, having a blog has its own consequences.


since thats the case, fine.

Cleared.

Okay. Regarding my 'sometimes i wonder' post, it is just a misunderstanding.
After clarifying with 'A', I got to know ,
'A' did not help as he did not know what to do and what to say.
And for some other issues, they are also misunderstandings. Everything is done unintentionally. And yes, I trust you.
I apologize for what i have done.
All misunderstandings are being cleared. =D

But is it worth it? nope.

OKAY.

Well, since i'm waiting for 'something' to be done, I might as well make use of this time to blog.

I am not going to post about today as there are too many things happening, especially when midnight comes. ZzZ. And this leads me to the next topic. People, don't read it if you find it too pessimistic or stupid or what-so-ever.

What if one day, I am not around anymore?

Touch wood. Thats so pessimistic of me. But, thats what if.
Well, will i die with regrets? Have I live my life to the fullest?
I like what Nigel once said to me. He said, 'We only live once'
Yes, I totally agreed with him and i think we should live our life to the fullest.
I think from today, I must try things that I usually don't, do things that I like and EVERYTHING, then I won't die with regrets.
To everyone who read this post. Please express yourself to the person you love, you adore, you like. Coz you don't know what will happen in the next second. Even if you are afraid of getting rejected or something (by the person you like/love), SO WHATS THE BIG F DEAL?? At least you express yourself, at least you may get to know how the other party feels. Think, what if you never get a chance to say? Regret.

OKAY, sorry for this boring post. Something happened which leads me to this topic. CYA =D


i'm still here for you.

Sometimes i wonder.

Hmmm. Sometimes i really wonder, can i really trust people whom i trusted? People whom i trusted are those that i share my problems with, tell them what is happening around me, etc. But that doesn't mean that i don't trust people whom i never share my problems with, etc. People who knows me well will understand that i seldom share my problems and stuffs with people. I will usually keep them to myself. I will also tell, if anyone asked.

Now, it comes to friends and brothers. I will know who to trust and who not to trust. However, if friends and brothers that i trusted backstab me, I guess they are not worth being my friends or brothers.

I came across a situation, which i can forgive, but i couldn't forget.
'A' knew that i needed this big help from him, and yet, 'A' didn't help me, instead added salt and vinegar to make it worst. Actually, it wasn't really a big help, just some words will maybe help me to get what i wanted.

My words to 'A'- I seriously don't know why you do this. Maybe you did it unintentionally, but if i were you. I will definitely help you no matter what. And common sense will tells us, it is only right to help a brother/friend.
If you do this because of other purposes and not unintentionally, a big fuck you to you.
If you are smart enough, you will know who i'm talking about.

Well. The only person who knows about this case is Hui Ting. And yes, she agrees with me.

To conclude, the only person to trust - yourself.

Pardon me.

Alright. I know U will never see this. But I don't give a damn.

Well, after typing quite a few sentences of my anger towards U, i decided to delete them. I don't wish to upset 'N' and well, i don't want 'N' to be affected, etc.

Words to U - Treasure it before its gone.
Words to 'N' - I don't want you to come to me, but I want you to be happy, although it doesn't seems like it.

OKAY. BYE.


KNN.

Project day.

Today, woke up at 8.30am and prepare to go to school for projects. Reached school at around 1o plus. Started to do our group projects at around 10.45am and had a short break from 12 to 1.
We continued to do until it was finally done, except for ppt. We shall leave that to Jeremy, who din turn up.

Projects, projects, projects are really killing people..BUT.. think positive. Get it done and thats it.

Went to CCK for a few games of DMGF. After which, went to Mac with Yman and Jason for dinner, but only Yman ate. After that, we left and went home.

Lazy to blog much. And there's nothing much for me to post about today.



What the hell.

OKAY.

Okay i'm damn shagged. SO, i decided to combine what i have done on Monday and Tuesday

Monday

Woke up at 8am to help my father to work. Which also means that i only had 3 hours of sleep.
Just in case nobody knows what my father does, it's carpentery work. My father can design the way u want to place your furniture, 'do' your furniture and fix them into your house, etc. But today, we only went to change the doors of the cabinets- as theirs are really too old.
It took us about 8 hours with an hour break in between to finish changing.
One thing i find it hilarious- One of the members of the family was listening to the 'No Pork' podcast. And he was laughing away with his brothers. And last thing, they were Malays.

Reached home at about 6.30pm. Got a quick shower and got myself prepared to go gym with Nigel. Well, we had a short gym session and ended at around 9 plus.

I went home after that and had a quick shower again. And i realise there is nothing for me to do already. So as usual, i played o2jam and always got hang in between. KNN. Damn F. up.

After some o2jam, i went to bed as i am REAL tired.

Tuesday

Woke up at around 1pm and went to gym with my brother. (Sorry to Yu Guang for not going gym with you as my brother already jio me to gym) Learned quite a lot of new things from my brother, who used to be a gym-siao. But due to him studying for around 4-5 months, he slimed down a lot and became weak. He started gyming again last week. We ended our session after 1 and a half hour.

Went home to take a shower. And intended to go to CCK for DM. However, i'm tired as usual. So, i decided not to go. Although i'm damn tired, i din sleep and continue playing o2jam for a while. Slacked after that, had my dinner.

Slept at around 2am after watching yu le bai fen bai. WHAT A BORING DAY.

NOW. The tonning session.

OKAY. This happened on Saturday Night, the 16th of June.

Went to DBG to meet up with the CCKers. Arrived there at around 8pm. Not long after, we set off to ECP.

We reached there, and we got ourselves a bicycle and we set off to have our dinner. While we were having our dinner, i felt some droplets of water falling down. AND SOON, it rained. And so, we had our dinner in CCK style- we gathered at a sheltered area and we had our dinner together, sitting on the floor. AND one thing, y did it rain? Well, i guess it was due to some YAO QI and most of us think so too.

Never mind about that. After dinner, we went to Mac and fetched Yman. On our way there, it drizzled and all of us got wet. We reached Mac, slacked there for some time and we continued our cycling back to DBG.

We stopped at waterfront and took some pictures there. It was really a nice scenary there.

A group photo with Charlene as the camera women. P.S. Jerry blocked SK and Yman was not in the photo as he was on the phone.

After slacking a while there, we continued our journey to DBG.

On our way there, SK got separated from us. At first, we thought that he wouldn't know his way to DBG, plus, he got no HP with him. We started to worry.. er.. OKAY. I started to worry. But in the end, he reached DBG first. ZZZ. He said he came first as he was very urgent. Charlene, Jerry and me reached next as we also got separated from the group. After a while, the rest of the group reached. AND the next thing i knew was KSM sinned. He was the first to sin. lol.

We met up with Nicholas, and we sat down and slack and chat. Well, some of us saw a malay couple hugging each other and soon they went to the toilet. The guys, excluding me quickly followed them to the toilet as they knew that they would be..... YA. Based on what i heard from them, they were really trying to..... in the handicapped toilet. They peeped into the handicapped toilet and there was one champion who switched off the light. 'OIE', shouted by the malay guy. Quickly they ran off. Well, i don't wish to say much about this incident as i am not involved. But the next thing we knew was that the malay guy was talking on the phone. We thought that he was going to diao zui. So, we discussed ALL the possible consequences. In the end, nothing happened.

We also took some photos at DBG before setting off again.

Whole group photo

We set off soon after a few photoshots.

On out way back, Jing Quan, Shengtat, KSM and Jason sinned.


Jing Quan- sinned twice, both also in front of me. Very difficult to miss.
First sin- 'caused' by SK
Second sin- CLAIMED that his spectacle was misty-unclear vision.


Shengtat- sinned once, which is due to the wet road.
And YES, Shin and me saved the sin.



KSM- sinned twice, due to infamiliarity of road and inexperienced cycling.
First sin, did not bleed.
Second sin, bleeded.


Jason- sinned once, also claimed that his spectacle was misty.And so, unclear vision


If there are anymore sinners that i missed out, please update me. THANK YOU.


Well, we reached ECP at around 7 am and we stop at Mac to wash ourselves up and rest. We parked our bicycle at a 'no-parking zone'

P.S. some of the bicycles at the far back do not belong to us. We only got 14 of them.

Well, we ate and rested outside Mac and soon we returned our bicycles to the shop. We got a missing key for a lock. At first, that shop uncle did not realise, until a while later as we were walking off. And so, we were to pay 15 bucks for that supposedly. BUT due to ACT BLURNESS, we escaped from paying.

We went separate ways after that. I guessed everyone enjoyed this trip. Yes, i did.

As promised...

Okay la. Never really promise. But since i got the photos for the Sentosa outing, shall post some.
And it is really SOME. i didn't upload most of the pictures as they are mostly junk pictures. (I'm not saying the girls are junk btw) And partly because i'm lazy. XD

Playing frisbee.

Chao Ah Gua a.ka Chao Ah Neh a.k.a SEXY

The FITTEST one is standing in between Ivan and me.

WeiQi, Naomi, Liwen

Damn Nice.. GE PI. (btw this is not my hand, thats y not nice)

Group Photo without JQ, who is sleeping. I can always cut and paste JQ picture. No worry.

OKAY. The rest of the photos are mostly the girls. SO IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED, i can always send them to U. But DUN RISK.

DRUNK.

Went to JP to meet Char, Winston and Hui Ting for a drink. Bought some alcohol from 7-11 and we went to some dunno wad place to drink. Well, i dun usually drink unless its a chalet. After drinking, our faces turned red and everyone became high, or rather dizzy. Went to play another round of arcade as Hui Ting wants to play Drummania.
Words to Hui Ting- As this is your first time playing, I think that u r already better then a lot of beginners. Keep it up man. I'm sure U will master this game one day if this continues.

Well, as i am feeling dizzy and hot, i can't play dm well. Lousy results.

We went to Mac for an ice-cream cone. All of us were high inside mac. Throwing things at each other, banging the table (Char only), etc. Luckily someone suggested to go and immediately i stood up and walk away. IF NOT, i guess we will be kicked out.

Yeah. To end, had a fun day. I guess none of us can take alcohol well. So dun suggest it again. lol.


i'm tired.

SLACK.

Wanted to gym today, but none is free. So, did some workouts at home and after that, played some o2jam and nutting else. Later mayb gonna go JP with some friends to have a drink? lol.. i dunno. I'm feeling very slack. Well, nothing to blog for now. So i guess i shall just blog again later? Or mayb tml. cya guys.

Get going.

OOPS..

OOPS. Realise that i have forgotten to blog about ytd. well. shall have a summary of what had happened ytd.

YES. Finally, i got myself more sleep. eh.. around 6 hours. i guess thats more than enough. Woke up at around 11.45am and i realised that i'm late! I am suppose to meet my friends at Harbourfront station at 12pm. So, they went to Sentosa first. And i have to meet up with JQ who will also be late. Met him at 1.30pm and realise that he slept for only 2 hours. (Well, i didn't know that u guys are tonning. If i knew, i wouldn't hesitate to join.)

We met up with Ivan, Naomi, Liwen and Weiqi, who were already there, under the DAMN hot sun, at the beach. We played Frisbee, 'volleyball', and soccer there. We also had a swim and took some photos. (If possible, will upload some). Well, there were quite a number of ppl there suntanning, swimming, etc. And very FORTUNATE, some indians came. They set up their territory near us, and we were afraid of losing our belongings. And there we started our suanning and XL-ing. I dun wish to elaborate much about the contents.

We stayed there for about 5 to 6 hours and obviously, we got tanned/burned. And i almost forgotten to add. JQ's stomache is damn big. Well, time to gym and run with us, JQ. After bathing, we went back to VIVO and da pao our dinner at subway. After dinner, someone suggested to play pool and yes, we went to West Coast RC to have a few rounds of pool. After pool, we went home.

We had fun, and those ppl i mentioned were my ex-NPCC friends/brothers. It has been a while since we had such an outing. And yes, sorry to my project group members for not attending the meeting. I hope i can contribute again next time.


I dunno y.

HOT.

Today woke up at 8am to work for my father. In other words, i had only about 3 hours of sleep. ZZZ.

Ended work at 2 pm. Went home to take a quick shower and then off to gym!

Met Nigel at Clementi and we went to pine grove gym together. After working out, off to the pool! We were relaxing there til 6 plus and we went for dinner together.

After dinner, i went home and gets myself another quick shower before heading to Queensway with Ivan. I need to get something but in the end, couldn't find what i wanted. SO, we went to play a few games of pool. Totally no mood to play, but managed to win Ivan. lol.

The nite is still young, i guess i have to wait til 2?3?4am before i can sleep, even though my eyes weighs 10 tons.But I got my own reason for doing that. =D

I am SO SO SO tired. I haven been getting sufficient sleep. Everyday i'm like sleeping for 2 - 3 hours. This is mayb y i'm starting to feel a little unwell. A lot of people out there are either getting sick, or already sick. Well, my dear friends, please take good care of yourselves and drink more water okay. the weather is damn HOT. zzz.


if it is the past, i will.
but now, i will consider

I AM LAZY.

YO. This is my very first post. Suddenly got the urge to blog.

Firstly, a BIG THANK U to Mee Chee for helping me to create this blog. Although it is not very difficult, but i'm just too lazy.
I welcome anybody that is willing to help me to design my blog until swee swee. LOL.

Hmmmm. I don't feel like posting about today as i am feeling a little unwell. i will start tml. =D